Suprise and Goodbye

I do believe that my blogging days are over...or I will be going on a seriously long hiatus!

My life is so full right now that I do not have a great deal of time to be online anymore.
I decided to begin guitar lessons and those are going well and so playing the guitar is filling up a good deal of time. Also my son seems to be extremely needy right now and in serious need of my time and discipline. I am thinking things are only going to get more intense with him because....

We are adopting a baby! The baby is due September 15 (just 4 days before my son's birthday). My husband and I have really had a difficult time picking a name but I believe we've settled on one (after many changes and hemming and hawing). We are over the moon with excitement.
In order to adopt the baby we will have to have another home study and so I'm trying to ready the house: garage sale, painting, organizing, deep cleaning.
I also have some family projects that require great time commitments.

So right now my family and home really needs me. I haven't been feeling great physically for the last month and so getting something accomplished each day is not going as well as I'd like. I'm having bloodwork done next week to see if there might be a problem.

So I will say goodbye "for now"

Love to all

Passion

So my last post was a bit down in the dumps wasn't it? I was definitely going through something mentally/emotionally and soon afterwards I suffered an anxiety attack that lasted several hours. The last couple of days I've been feeling much better and I think I know what's been missing.

I am completely fufilled in being a homemaker. I take my job seriously and I'm good at it. I don't make any money at it and I certainly don't gain any notoriety but my husband reminds me almost daily how thankful he is that I do what I do. I see good fruits in my son (even though we have our difficulties) and I've never been more at ease.

There is one thing that bothers me about my life but it's not going to change anytime soon and I'm not comfortable sharing it with anyone but God - so don't ask.

I do know now that I have a desire to get back on stage and also even challenge myself with creating music in some way (which seems far fetched and makes me uncomfortable).

For now, I'll continue to be creative with my knitting and I'll just need to continue to be patient and wait for an opportunity to come along in which I can stretch my acting muscles again. It's all so painful though. My husband understands...he considers his art to be painful too, but it's all he wants to do - what is it that is blocking us from enjoying what we feel passionate about?

I'm still not sure if I'm really thinking at all. I sure do hope I can hear the music in my head one day again - that beautiful background music that plays throughout my days and behind my thoughts and memories.

Let Me In On The Secret

I am a little confused these days. I am strong in my faith. I am happy to be a Christian, wife, and mother. I am a daughter, friend, bread baker, penny pincher, introvert, knitter, organizer, dreamer.

I am all these things but....who am I really? I don't know. Does something need to define me? Do I need to define myself? I don't know what to write anymore. I am not sure if I am even thinking at all.

I don't even feel together enough to feel dull. Haven't you felt dull sometimes? It's like a hazy feeling, a cloud sitting over your brain.
To me...feeling dull right now would be good because I actually feel numb and confused.

Something is definitely missing. The music inside my head has stopped playing. I feel very strange and distant. I don't know what to do.

I'm Sorry!

I haven't posted in awhile, I'm BUSY! I've got my hands full with a 3 yr. old, taxes, business stuff, household stuff and a really intense Bible reading plan. I have a strong feeling that this year is going to be very fruitful and very filled and hectic. I expect that I'm not going to have a great deal of time to spend on the computer. My family needs me, my house needs me and somewhere along the lines the Lord may bring us another child. I figure if that's the case I'm pretty much done for ha ha!

I would like to have more time to update here but I'm not sweating it because my life is so full and rich - I have to live and go and do and be. I've got the bull by the horns...WHEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!

2008 Aspirations

I don't make resolutions because I try to live everyday as my best. I also don't like setting myself up to fail which happens all to often with New Year resolutions.

I do have a few items I'd like to concentrate as the year goes on, things that I have been planning on making a priority. This is going to be one busy and great year!

1. Read through the Bible.
I was reading over at Brandy's site that she had joined a group that was reading the Bible in 90 days. I don't know what group this is but it sparked my interest and I searched online for a reading breakdown and found one. I had been wanting to start a plan (not just because it was the beginning of the year) and I think this one fits in with my life right now. It's a lot of reading each day but I read when I eat my meals (physical and spiritual food).

2. Organize Pictures - Online & Hard Copies
I have pictures and pictures and pictures that I have never organized for years! I have box upon box upon bin upon drawer of pictures. Now that I have a son I want to make some scrapbooks for him and get everything organized and copied and filed and and and...
This job is not for the weak of heart. I anticipate starting this in February and it will probably take me all year.

3. Fill My Craft Store With New Knits
I have some new patterns and colors that I'd like to use in my "2008 Line" if you will. I am trying some new patterns out to see how they will work. I haven't perfected the new hat I want to feature. I would like to add some baby/toddler knitwear.

4. Foster Care
I am taking Foster Care training and we plan on having another home study done in the hopes of finding a child to adopt (which leads to #5).

5. Organize Playroom/Schoolroom and Garage
I need to have an organized and properly functioning home if the state is coming in to evaluate us and if we are going to have more children. This must be done S-O-O-N!


All of my aspirations will be worked on while doing a good bit of traveling back home often, raising my son, caring for my husband and home and I also plan to have a large yard sale in early summer.

Oh yes! I will be busy!

New Year's Sale

As promised I'm having a huge sale at my Craft Store. Every single item has been reduced by 50% and this sale is for one week only. If you didn't get one of my hats, scarves, stockings or pouches under your Christmas tree this year then now is the time to shop! I will not offer such savings again for 2008.

On the horizon in my store for 2008:

* Multi-colored hats & scarves
* Baby & Toddler knitwear

Thanks for stopping by and HAPPY NEW YEAR from PINKOLOGY!

Magical Holiday Home

We have spent a great deal of time over the last several months readying our homes and selves for Thanksgiving, Christmas & New Year and now it's all drawing to a close.

Because of the way I schedule my time and the use I get out of my Holiday Notebook I had myself a wonderful Christmas. Habit is the best friend to an organizational junkie like me.

Anyway, I wanted to give a grand "HELLO" to all the people who are visiting me from Magical Holiday Home.

I was unaware that things seem to be shutting down at Organized Christmas and Holiday Grand Plan. It seems folks are making their way to MagicalHolidayHome.com and so I will set up my pink lawnchair over there for awhile to check things out.

I need to do some reading up on it but there is a program called JumpStart January that I will join (if it's what I think it is, I was planning on doing it all along, just on my own).

Join me in my adventures won't you?

I don't do resolutions but I've got some goals to reach for this year which I'll share in another post. So cop a squat on my pink sofa over here and lets have some pink hot chocolate and chat awhile.

Talk atcha soon!