Let Me In On The Secret
I am a little confused these days. I am strong in my faith. I am happy to be a Christian, wife, and mother. I am a daughter, friend, bread baker, penny pincher, introvert, knitter, organizer, dreamer.
I am all these things but....who am I really? I don't know. Does something need to define me? Do I need to define myself? I don't know what to write anymore. I am not sure if I am even thinking at all.
I don't even feel together enough to feel dull. Haven't you felt dull sometimes? It's like a hazy feeling, a cloud sitting over your brain.
To me...feeling dull right now would be good because I actually feel numb and confused.
Something is definitely missing. The music inside my head has stopped playing. I feel very strange and distant. I don't know what to do.
I am all these things but....who am I really? I don't know. Does something need to define me? Do I need to define myself? I don't know what to write anymore. I am not sure if I am even thinking at all.
I don't even feel together enough to feel dull. Haven't you felt dull sometimes? It's like a hazy feeling, a cloud sitting over your brain.
To me...feeling dull right now would be good because I actually feel numb and confused.
Something is definitely missing. The music inside my head has stopped playing. I feel very strange and distant. I don't know what to do.
posted by Amanda @ 8:26 PM
1 Comments:
At 12:54 PM,
Melissa said…
I've been thinking about your post ever since I read it and can't not respond in some way.
I wish I had some huge words of wisdom to share with you, but I don't. The truth is that I have often felt the same way and the only thing I can do is cling to my favorite scripture. Jeremiah 29:11-13. Sometimes we just have to let go and let God....
Hang in there!
Many Blessings,
Melissa
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