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Saturday, March 15, 2008

Passion

So my last post was a bit down in the dumps wasn't it? I was definitely going through something mentally/emotionally and soon afterwards I suffered an anxiety attack that lasted several hours. The last couple of days I've been feeling much better and I think I know what's been missing.

I am completely fufilled in being a homemaker. I take my job seriously and I'm good at it. I don't make any money at it and I certainly don't gain any notoriety but my husband reminds me almost daily how thankful he is that I do what I do. I see good fruits in my son (even though we have our difficulties) and I've never been more at ease.

There is one thing that bothers me about my life but it's not going to change anytime soon and I'm not comfortable sharing it with anyone but God - so don't ask.

I do know now that I have a desire to get back on stage and also even challenge myself with creating music in some way (which seems far fetched and makes me uncomfortable).

For now, I'll continue to be creative with my knitting and I'll just need to continue to be patient and wait for an opportunity to come along in which I can stretch my acting muscles again. It's all so painful though. My husband understands...he considers his art to be painful too, but it's all he wants to do - what is it that is blocking us from enjoying what we feel passionate about?

I'm still not sure if I'm really thinking at all. I sure do hope I can hear the music in my head one day again - that beautiful background music that plays throughout my days and behind my thoughts and memories.

3 Comments:

  • At 2:38 AM, Blogger Mum-me said…

    God takes us out of our comfort zones, doesn't He? I will pray that you will find peace by waiting on the Lord and that He will reveal his plans to you.

     
  • At 3:53 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    I wish I could be your song. I wish I knew the words to sing to along. I'm sorry that some of your days seem so grey when you are the sunshine in other peoples day. I hope your find your song again there are more people that you can think of that are waiting to hear it. Stop, Breath, Smile, Laugh, Smell the Roses, you are loved, peace be with you and all that you do. Sing for everyone to hear.

    - Random Thoughts

     
  • At 4:52 PM, Blogger **Marilyn** said…

    I can totally understand something of what ur saying. Despite trully loving My Girls and care and love from Hubby sometimes I get manic and then anxiety of NOT bieng perfect and Altogether. I was a SAHwife for 2yrs then SAHMummy now for 6 years. Despite wanting to Work outside of Home. I KNOW it's not ideal for another 2years at least.{sigh} Sorry so Long.
    Hopefully a resolution is around the Corner 4 U.
    Bless.

     

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